Posted on 2006.08.08 at 14:27
I have enjoyed all of your various forms of self-expression for quite awhile now... sharing is caring, so here is some recent stuff- both commision work and... random doodling. I would love some feedback from all of you talented folks! ( ILIKETODRAWDRAWDRAWPEOPLE,NOTBANANASCollapse )
Posted on 2006.04.24 at 19:59
Feelin' kinda: thirsty
Posted on 2005.12.27 at 11:29
Feelin' kinda: hopeful
Listenin' to: Folsom Prison Blues
I haven't updated in eons because, well- I wasn't quite sure how to sum up what's been happening in my life as of late.
Here's a quick go at it....
Occupation: Art Teacher
Location: NOT my Hometown
Interests: Reconnecting with friends, trying(?) to make new ones
Mood: Radical Rebellion
I feel a great seaschange coming on in my life. I have done everything I set out to do and to become just a few years ago, but I'm desperately not happy with it. I got my initial license and moved far from home and, although it might be the specific position I'm in, all I want to do is move back and get a new job. Not just a new job- a different job. I would rather be working at Star Bucks or a Day Care Center or pretty much anywhere but where I am, doing anything but what I'm doing.
Everything has been so intense lately I feel as if I should just curl up in my studio and do portraits of people through my website for the rest of my life. At least with break I've had the chance to get some sleep, do some reading, and clear my head a bit. Though it would take a trip to Greece to dry out completely.
I have cried more and had more to drink in the past five months than I have in the past five years. That's a bit ridiculous.
Thanks to constant friends and family who are always willing to pick up the phone when I call, to joyride with me, to be two years old with me.
Posted on 2005.07.08 at 23:33
Listenin' to: Take it away, I never had it anyway-RHCP
Back to reality. I had forgotten for one shining, glimmering moment. How quickly things can change. I can't help but feel how vicerally I experience things since September 11th, how my life changed on that day in so many ways stretching out to the horizon and I guess I continue stumbling along to discover them. I can't even look at the news, and I feel ill when I sit down to read the paper. It has nothing to do with body count or the effectiveness of the attack, only the shallowness of the second that it took to happen. The look on people's faces as they stand, bereft, looking at what only a moment ago had been familiar and now is surreal.
I guess I have been a little busy since May, but it would have been nice if I had written at least one journal entry while I was gone. Too late now.
Thailand was so incredibly beautiful and our tour guide Mam was just lovely. We met travelers from every continent, rolling around the world with us. It will probably be the best vacation of my entire life. One day I'll have to put up a picture of me on the longboat from the River Kwai Resotel- my new favorite place on earth. If I ever need to hide away from the world in a more concrete way, I know where to go.
If you are reading this, I wish you peace.
Posted on 2005.05.27 at 00:37
Feelin' kinda: okay
Listenin' to: Cabron- Red Hot Chili Peppers
So I did get that diploma after all! I apologize for the long lapse in lj for those who were concerned... it was definitely dark days for awhile there. The *EXTREMELY SPECIAL* prof for that one credit class took a look at my grades with me in the room and -low and behold- she had the assignments right there in the building with her, yet zeros in the gradebook.
It's all well and good that she sat down with me and fixed all the grades, but you just do not do that to someone who is less than a week away from graduating. I think those three days of e-mails and waiting took about a year off my life-span.
But I did it! Four long, long years of hunting down those credits and I captured the last one at the last minute. The whole weekend went well, move out was chaotic as usual. The ceremony itself was beautiful with the sun shining and the speaker was the host of the NPR morning show (Renee Montagne), so I was personally really happy with it.
And Michelle flew in from New Mexico and got the hang out in the dorms and meet all my friends there, which was cool and kind of cathartic in a way. I actually didn't cry at all. Not during the walk across the stage, not when I turned over my dorm room key, and not when I took that last long drive out the back gate. I've been so exhausted ever since that I'm beginning to wonder if it has even hit me yet.
Regardless, it was great to spend some quality time with my best at the beach and talk about all she and I have been through over the past year. Huh. Maybe that's why I'm exhausted.
Now my only responsibilities in life are to tie up loose ends at my student teaching school, mail out some resumes, and trying to figure out when where and how to build a life for myself. oh!-and getting ready for a month in Thailand.
I just hope that I don't wind up like Bridget in the Edge of Reason, because I like my bras and I certainly don't know any Madonna tunes. Somewhere in all the nonsense of graduation week I fell head over heels for the Red Hot Chili Peppers (By the Way), though. Maybe Thai women would like to learn some of their music?
If you are reading this, I hope you are well and all is right in your world!
Posted on 2005.05.05 at 21:28
Listenin' to: I'm only happy when it rains-Garbage
Words cannot describe.... I just love those moments when you world comes crashing down around you and then- well, it continues crashing.
Really- can't begin to go into the shit hole that is my life at this moment. Like my sister says- "I don't want to kill myself, I just... wish I was dead."
We are born innocent, believe me Adia, it's easy- We are faulted, but does it matter?
Posted on 2005.05.03 at 22:24
You Are a Dreaming Soul
Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you awy from this world
So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time
You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all...
But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult
You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you.
Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses.
Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others.
Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life.
Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul
If it were up to me I would not be a dreamer- I would be a realistic, feet-on-the-ground kind of girl, but I do a very poor imitation of grounded so I guess I'll stick to head-in-the-clouds. Life's always interesting that way...
Long day, just need to make it through seven more days (and EOG testing... shoot me now) in order to regain my sanity.
Posted on 2005.05.01 at 14:22
Feelin' kinda: enwe
Listenin' to: "Cabron", Red Hot Chili Peppers
I graduate in two weeks.
I can't even fathom what that feels like right now.
Unlike highschool, I feel as though I'm on the edge of a precipice as I look past the date of graduation.
I'm not even sure anymore that I will be doing what I have planned so long to do. It's not that I'm unsure of whether I am capable, or whether I want to do it. The career is just so large and looming. I don't want to abandon my goals, but I do want a lifestyle where I will be able to do something besides work.
I am so SO happy to be single, but I still look at those girls who have found someone to cling to and I am envious at the security. When I graduate everything changes, but they have this constant. They are able to turn off their thoughts at the end of the day with the knowledge that they will not be alone tomorrow.
I am alone every tomorrow.
Posted on 2005.04.23 at 14:07
Listenin' to: Los versos mas tristes...
-"What a Good Boy" by The Barenaked Ladies
-"Baby Girl" by Nelly Furtado
-"I Love You" by Sarah McLaughlin (always made me think of DC, even before J/D), as well as "Do What You Have to Do" by Sarah
-"Beautiful Mess" by Diamond Rio (well, it should be Josh's song, anyway... at least in fanfic)
-"I Shall Believe" by Sheryl Crow
-"Ex-Factor" by Lauryn Hill
-"Shut Up and Drive" by Chely Wright and "A Little Past Little Rock" by Lee Anne Womack are both the 'new Donna'
-"The Scientist" by Coldplay
-"Call and Answer" by BNL, if they were to ever really have this conversation...
-"Don't Go" and "A Million Tears" by Kasey Chambers
-"A Case of You" by Joni Mitchell
-"Joga" by Bjork
-"Let Him Fly" by the Dixie Chicks
-"Back to You" by John Mayer
-"I Thought You Knew" by Keith Urban
-"Babylon" by David Gray
...and hopefully, one day "In My Life" by the Beatles will apply to them.
Plus the compilation of other's suggestions:
Unaccompanied Cello Suite No. 1 in G Major - Yo-Yo Ma
What Am I To You? - Norah Jones
Wonderwall - Oasis
What I Meant to Say - The Bangles
Something's Gotta Give - Ella Fitzgerald
Desire - Ryan Adams
Donna - Ritchie Valens
Something to Talk About - Badly Drawn Boy
Can't Fight This Feeling - REO Speedwagon
Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
The Path of Thorns (Terms) - Sarah McLachlan
Temptation - Dianna Krall
The First Cut is the Deepest - Sheryl Crow
Delicate - Damien Rice
Golden - My Morning Jacket
Ways & Means - Snow Patrol
The Scientist - Coldplay*
Donna & Blitzen - Badly Drawn Boy
Iris - GooGoo Dolls
Stay - Michelle Featherstone
Babylon - David Grey*
Something to Talk About - Bonnie Raitt
Call Me Irresponsible - Frank Sinatra
Beyond the Sea - Bobby Darin
I Love You - Sarah McLachlan*
I haven't even heard of some of those, so I guess I need to do some research. ;)
** Update-- I was running this morning and this Kylie Minogue song came on, and sinnce I still had J/D song filter on in my head I thought it would make a really funny scenario to call it a J/D song. ;)
"Red Blooded Woman"
Before you get too heated and turned on (and turned on)
You should've learned your lesson all in times before
You've been bruised, you've been broken
And theres my mind saying think before you go
Through that door that takes me to nowhere (yes boy)
I stopped you all romantic crazy in your head
You think I listen, no I don't care
Can't focus I can't stop
You got me spinning round, round, round, round (like a record)
Can't focus it's too hot (inside)
You'll never get to Heaven, if your scared of getting high
(Boy, boy) Let me keep freaking around, I wanna get down
And I'm a red-blooded woman, what's the point of hanging around?
I wanna keep turning it down, when this girl wants to rock with you, yeah...
;)... (Would love to see Donna get her freak on with Josh... oh- the confusion...)
Posted on 2005.04.23 at 13:26
Feelin' kinda: thoughtful
Listenin' to: Allison Kraus "Restless"
So... life has been a little crazy, and to be truthful I just fell back into the whole "reading, not writing in lj" mindset. There's just... so much to read. Stories, political ideas, fiction, song lyrics, art ideas. I get so caught up in it that I forget that I should update.
Student teaching has been really interesting, I have to say. After months in the classroom full-time I finally feel like it's mine (even though it isn't, I have to feel that way to present everything to the kids as a definite). I think I'm really good at it. Better than a lot of teachers out there already, but I still have a lot that I would like to improve upon. The only thing that I feel out of control over is that I am not 100% a people person, in that I really dislike conflict. I know most people don't, and we all kind of suck it up and deal, but emotional things like that tend to bother me for extended periods of time.
I've found that on the days that I'm really stressed I automatically "take a vacation" afterschool- which to me is a nice twenty-minute drive in my car. I drive and process everything that has happened that day, how I felt about it, what I should have done differently, etc. I guess that it's just starting to hit me what an emotional job it is. In some random office job I'd be in a cubicle for 70% of the day, but when you're a teacher you have to communicate with other people ALL day, non-stop. I like my me time, so I guess I need to start actively creating time to be alone after work. For the next 3 weeks, though- I'm also trying to spend as much time as possible with all of my friends here at school before we're all dust in the wind after graduation.
Anywho- LJ has become part of my anonymous alone time when I get up in the morning and make coffee and watch the news. The other morning some very psychic person posted a request about J/D songs, and I had quite a few answers in response, so I'll probably post them on here in a minute for posterity's sake.
Speaking of lyrics, if you have not heard the new Destiny's Child song, well- it's disgusting.
( Cater 2 U, by Destiny's ChildCollapse )